NOW AND THEN

NOW AND THEN

 

 

I can stop writing to you now

Writing is all I am

 

Until the end you will always be Then to me

 

Am I ever even a faint smile to you?

 

You’ve been gone a long time now

I haven’t gone anywhere

I am caught remembering

A Time now

Long gone

 

I will find for myself the answer

The answer I already know

Or stop asking

 

I’m not important

 

You were just a promise I made to myself

 

I don’t want anything anymore anyway

 

 

(You must want something )

(What do you want?)

 

 

High ground

 

Jesus Christ

I’m talking to myself again

 

 

(What is it about this being crucified thing?)

(Shedding your body?)

(Rising?)

 

 

I felt love approaching

I was so sure

 

So was I crazy or were you my destiny?

 

I was crazy

You were my crazy

 

That is rock bottom comedy

Me unfolding like a paper party horn

Rolling to the end

Sounding a tissue trumpet

 

 

(What are you afraid of?)

 

 

Things as they actually exist

 

I believed there was a me and you

It’s only me

I am it alone

 

 

(Oh please stop it)

(Can I just laugh at you now?)

(I am weary of you)

(I won’t be back)

 

(Yet here I am)

 

(I wished you would stop writing me)

(Let me go)

(Let me go for your own sake)

 

(You aren’t my fault)

(You knew what we were doing)

 

(So I am glad for you)

(Now and then)

 

 

 

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